Reflecting on what kept me going for the past few months, when at times even God Himself did not seem to make sense, I came to the conclusion that there exists an eternal God who created the universe ex nihilo. The universe is completely and absolutely contingent upon God for its beginning as well as its continued existence. He is among other thing, personal, omnipotent, omniscient, omnipresent, perfectly good, necessary and infinitely wise. It was not always easy to see His goodness. Neither did I understand His wisdom at all times. Through it all however, I came to be more convinced of His existence and perfection more than ever before.I realized that God created me in His image and likeness. I am not merely a collection of physical parts. I am valuable to Him. Just as much as am of great value to Him, so are all the other human beings around me. Human life is sacred and ought to be protected. He has instilled in me the capacity to make moral choices. As a moral agent, I have the capacity to make decisions and judgments within the lager framework of family and government.
For me as a Christian and God’s agent in this world, marriage, government and church are not merely social constructions that can be shaped in any way consistent with some utopian vision of justice but rather are natural institutions in which and by which human being ought to learn what is good, true and beautiful. I seek and plan to get married soon not because all my friends are married. Not because my relatives want me to get married. Not because I feel am getting old. But because am convinced that God ordained marriage and has put in me a desire to get married, that I may establish another institution within which I can make moral choices. I honor and submit to the authority of the government and my Church not out of fear but out of respect for what God has established.
There were times when God revealed Himself to me in some special way apart from the revelation of Him that I found by reading the Bible and observing nature around me. For me to accept the truth in the bible, I had to accept the perfectness of God. If he is perfect as stated in Mk 10:18; Heb 6:18, then His word must be without error. I have to believe every bit of it. And that’s how my faith was built.
I got a chance to combine my faith with reason. I found every reason to believe in what I believe in. at some point, I held on to the fact that faith is believing in something when common sense tells you not to. This is not what faith is all about. In our post modern society, I found a greater need to authenticate my faith. I purposed to “Always be prepared to give an answer to everyone who asks me to give the reason for the hope that I have. But I seek to do this with gentleness and respect, keeping a clear conscience, so that those who speak maliciously against my good behavior may be ashamed of their slander”. Yes, i have to explain what i mean when I say that my faith is true!
Talking of faith, my faith in Christ (Christianity) is more than something to give me peace of mind and purpose for life and happiness. It should to this but there is something more. True Christianity must be grounded in reality, it must make true claims about reality – who we are as human beings, who God is, and how we relate to God. The religion that cannot truthfully answer these questiuons is false, not because it fails to give one peace of mind, but because it makes false claims about the way things are. I therefiore go to church wevery Sunday not to feel good about myself, but to meet the real true God. I study His word not because I want to find some portion of scripture that will make me scream in happiness, but because it contains the real true truth.
And so my reflection and search for the True Truth continues
